Let me just say I never have felt like I've known what we were going to have, but I just really felt so strongly it was going to be a girl. I had only saved a bucket of girl clothes...
In the days before we had been throwing around names and there wasn't a boy name that I loved but there was a girl name. While talking to Andrew on the phone the day before the ultra sound I said there's a girl name I really like but I don't know if you'll like it and he said he had thought of a name for a girl as well. He said it was Faith, and I said "That's the name I wanted!!!" Must be meant to be.
He concluded it must be a girl. And stuck to that all the way into the ultra sound.
Needless to say I was more than shocked when they said it was a boy!
I don't usually let myself have expectations so I don't feel the disappointment when it's not how I think it should be.
So to say I disappointed is an understatement. I felt so sure. Wow, I'm a brat I know here I was getting the baby we had wanted for 4 years and I was upset it was a boy!?!
It took me a while to get my feelings in order, but I did.
It's hit and miss with cute boy clothes and in my opinion they were all hideous.
So I bought fabric to make him a blanket, something cute that I would like.
I was just so sure it would be a girl, I didn't know how to process it. And I didn't do it very well.
Those expectations will get you every time! Or just me, because I can be a little bratty.
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